Tuesday, May 1, 2012

A New Kind of Blessing

A couple nights ago I was getting into bed. Micah had already been asleep for a couple of hours, and Lydia was down until her next feeding. While climbing in I felt an incredible surge of happiness, joy, and gratitude. For the first time in my life all the rooms in my house were filled with little children. My little children.

I am grateful for my babies. I am grateful for my babies in a way I never knew was possible before I had children.

Somebody asked me before I had Lydia if I was worried that I would love Micah less after I had her. It was a question I hadn't really considered, but with as much love as I already felt for the new little baby-to-be, I started to worry a little and was afraid Micah might get a bit neglected.

What an amazing thing God does to mothers!! God doesn't give us one serving of love that has to be divided up between our spouses, kids, other family members and friends... one dose of love to figure out how to distribute throughout our whole lives. No! He gives his love and somehow multiplies our own! I am so grateful for this.

Lately I have been asking myself how does anyone ever stop having children? How do we decide which is the last little life we are willing to bring into this world? How do we decide how many gifts and rewards are enough for us? (Psalm 127:3) I like Michelle Duggar and the fact that she and her husband are willing to have so many children. Do I think they're nuts? Absolutely!! But now that I have two babies of my own... two little souls to bring up in the way of the Lord... I can understand why they could never find the hearts to stop.

I love my babies. I love Micah now more than I knew was possible before I had Lydia. I can't wait until he's up and running around. I am looking forward to getting to see all the stages of his life seated in the front row. I am looking forward to seeing who my little daughter will turn into. She is such a happy little baby and has been smiling all day.

God is good. We never get too old for him to teach us new things, and he never stops amazing me.